I have never pooled myself in the category of people who lose their identities the moment they get into a relationship. While I've been guilty of diving head first into past dynamics, I've clung to the handing threads of fabric that make up who I am. Being single for the span of years was conducive to this. All energy and focus exerted by me was on me, and I came to conclusions and interests that suited the woman I am and continue to evolve into.
They say love is blind, and while that proves to be true in some instances, I don't know that I'm in full agreement. Instead, I believe love has the ability to soften hardened hearts, in turn opening closed minds to new ideas and experiences. Even I, a stubborn Taurus, have been mastered by love. With ManFriend, my horizons have expanded (though sometimes reluctantly) and I have been able to push past limits. I may have been kicking and screaming at times, but somehow, becoming acquainted with the new has helped me to feel freer in the end.
But this doesn't mean old loves should be put on the back burner. For example, I have involved myself in a social love affair, my only excuse being the warm weather's put me in heat, and I'm now feeling the guilt and scorn that follows betrayal. My insides are bursting at the seams with words dying to explode into sentences, expressions, statements. And the only way to put out this fire is to write again.
But this doesn't mean old loves should be put on the back burner. For example, I have involved myself in a social love affair, my only excuse being the warm weather's put me in heat, and I'm now feeling the guilt and scorn that follows betrayal. My insides are bursting at the seams with words dying to explode into sentences, expressions, statements. And the only way to put out this fire is to write again.
Like a groveling lover begging for a second chance, I'm back.
and by the way, found new word today. its Attraversiamo ! kinda like it though.. new word, new inspiration !
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