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Mixed Feelings

Sometimes I just wanted to yell out what i am feeling inside me, be it happiness, sadness, anger or even telling jokes. And thinking about conveying feelings and emotions, i wish i know the exact things what to do when it comes to this matter. I don't know, am i a robot or something? Or did i just have no heart at all?

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, but nothing seems to be enlighten me with a good strike! At the end of the day, i'm just yet a worthless-no visionary-heartless-penniless girl/daughter/friend. a parent would asked for. Entah, is it me or the universe been rejecting me :(

I wish i am one of those normal human beings on earth who would chase their dreams, go for whatever it takes to be on top of the world, and taking all the risks, being worth to the family and friends and importantly, be own self. Be happy, be spontaneous at times, be angry, be a good listener and talker, be a person/shoulder that people could cry on, do charity works, be a good daughter, and be a good servant to Allah S.w.T. (only there's always syaitonirojiim bertenggek atas kepala that i've  no idea when would i taubat nasuha. Nothing to be proud of tho )

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