The Big Gay-bunk Theory

And so, nawaitu saumaghadin.. Aku ada strong feelings kata aku patut start writing balik. Not to please people or whatnot, but as a reminder for me in the future. Aku dapat rasa penyakit nyanyuk aku ni makin kronik sikit. Nasib nama masih ingat lagi. Haha. No, seriously just for fun to have my collections of memoirs that i have throughout my living years as an adult. Mana tau the future me tetiba datang ke apa kan, boleh refer sini nk tgk kronologi hidup camna. Hiks. Peace and out ✌️

F.U.C.K I missed my friends. Yes, i do. Be it the girls and the boys. Since some (i bet its 'most') of us are in our own temporarily-separate ways due to different working hours, studying overseas, was called to come back to hometown, etc, we were left with just a few to rock the table. (Yep, still alive and kickin!). I remembered clearly those days when i was alone, far away from home and family, being homesick n cry in the room for no reasons, everything was blurry and fearsome. Few days later, there, i saw 'them'. My bunch of idiotic-yet scored-most A's in SPM- friends that only us can understand us. We wouldn't talk abt things what normal people talk cause mostly we would talk and think like 'where do babies come from', 'why is the earth round', 'how do cats make out', 'why'd yo mom cooler than mine' kind of craps. Only when its Seriously Serious Time, talkings and table get Seriously Serious. Margeras. The Girls. Pre

Since aku banyak sangat masa hari ni, aku berniat nawaitu saumaghadin untuk menaip and acah-acah berdiari .  Now, aku dah start mengajar kt MRSM Tun Dr Ismail. Noo! bukan TDI KL tu, ni TDI PONTIAN! read my lipss, PON-TI-HANNN!! pontihanak betul. Well, walaupun at first aku tak terniat langsung nak masuk sini, tapi aku termasuk jugak. entah, terjebak teruk. Senang citer, rezeki jangan ditolak la orang tua-tua kata. Kalau ikut kata aku, "ahh persetankan semuaanyaaa" . HAHAHA So far so good kat sini. Walaupun first day of school aku dah macam cikgu pencen, aku layan je. And first day stay asrama, air paip rasa mcm tanah, aku layankan juga. Tiap pagi kena siren ngn siren asrama kul 5.30AM, aku layankan juga. Senang kata, bulan-bulan awal ni aku hadap jela semua dari celik bukak biji mata sampai la mata nk tutup balik tengah malam tu. dan begitulah seterusnyaaa. Berkawan? eh takda hal, akak pandai bergaul dgn orang keliling lawei. Walaupun kadang-kadang aku buat buat busy

Sometimes I just wanted to yell out what i am feeling inside me, be it happiness, sadness, anger or even telling jokes. And thinking about conveying feelings and emotions, i wish i know the exact things what to do when it comes to this matter. I don't know, am i a robot or something? Or did i just have no heart at all? I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, but nothing seems to be enlighten me with a good strike! At the end of the day, i'm just yet a worthless-no visionary-heartless-penniless girl/daughter/friend. a parent would asked for. Entah, is it me or the universe been rejecting me :( I wish i am one of those normal human beings on earth who would chase their dreams, go for whatever it takes to be on top of the world, and taking all the risks, being worth to the family and friends and importantly, be own self. Be happy, be spontaneous at times, be angry, be a good listener and talker, be a person/shoulder that people could cry on, do charity works, be a g

HELLAAA 2015!! tho its almost the end of the year I think it was 2012 when I last posted an entry here. Damn, tiga tahun bro, tiga tahun. Macam-macam dah berlaku selama 3 tahun tu. Antaranya : 1- Malaysia dah ada panda, kau tahu? 2- Kes kapal terbang komersial Malaysia yg hilang and kena tembak 3- PM Najib dapat derma 2.6 Billion. Kau hado? 4- Rosmah sikit lagi nak naik jadi PM  5- Area KL dh start ada kereta terbang-terbang, konon evoluton. 6- JB dah ada legoland, hello kitty world etc, yang mana bila nk masuk make sure duit kau berkepuk2 macam kau anak Raja Arab tau! 7- Johor ada JDT, siapa bukan ngefans mmg kau bukan ank Joho. aku kisah apa pulak kan. tgk bola pun tak reti :| 8- Zul Ariffin bercinta ngn aku. eh! 9- Terms baru dak-dak guna nk ajak gaduh : "MAK KAU IJAU!" 10- Kawan-kawan hampir semua dah busy bekerja, and belajar obesee 11- Kakak aku dh 5 kali hampir nk kahwin tp tak jadi jadi 12- Aku dh start jadi orang tua yang bakal bekerjaya Yeahh, bas

Dah dua malam aku tido lambat gara-gara teman membe buat assignments. Aku tak kesa sbb atleast aku ada sebab munyabab untuk layan Running Man marathon 3episodes satu malam. Haa nampak kan game dia kat situ. Sambil-sambil layan RM ni, aku perati je gelagat dorang semua. Entah kenapa, at some points aku rasa dorang ni macam aku ngn kawan-kawan aku, aka Margeras. Bonding dorang sangat kuat. Time gado, dorang gado. Time baik, dorang baik. Time nak sumpah seranah, dorang sumpah seranah. Samalah macam kitorang. Of course lah ramai lagi orang kat luar sana yang ada friendship mcm gini kan..bukan aku ngn kawan2 aku je. Ahh pedulik! Kawan kite, kite punya pasal lah. So, dalam ahli-ahli RM ni, aku paling suka Jae Suk, Haha, Gary and Ji Hyo. Yang lagi tiga tu bukan tak suka, tapi macam tak kena sangat kot ngn jiwa mata aku. Tp kalau dorang 3org ada depan mata aku skng ni, mmg aku peluk cium dah! Haha. Kadang2-kadang kan, aku sanggup marathon smpi 3-4 pagi utk abeskan satu satu episod. Kadang t